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You already know why you miss him - as you said it's because he was a big part of your life. It may be that it's less him you miss and more the space he previously filled. That space is now empty and you are probably feeling that. I think you did yourself good to get out of the relationship, no kind of abuse is or should ever be acceptable. You are only 21 and there's plenty of time to find someone to fill the space left by your ex. But first you need to take care of yourself and be the person you want to be. Make sure you have plenty of love and support around you, if not family and friends then us here at Sprite Stitch. Kind of clichéd advice but it was the best I could do! PM me any time if you need a helping hand with anything.
I've been checking her behavior and checked her diaper first thing this morning to make sure nothing happened. To think that I could be sleeping in the next room and someone was in my daughter's room and I had no idea. I can not wait to not live here anymore. I lived in downtown Detroit and never had this much of a problem. So much for being safer on a military base.
