Venting Thread, or FML!

[blackmageheart]

he brought me a flower and said he was sorry

That's lovely.

Glad you both sorted it out!

[BooChocoBoom]

@SheWhoRoars: QueenBex hit the nail on the head, so to speak. As someone that has always dealt with depression and, incidentally, has just come through another rather long period of it...I understand. Let me tell you though, even through all of the bleakness there is always hope. For me, it's my friends and family that tend to haul me out of it. It's not always easy and I would definitely recommend you try to find a counselor nearby when you go to Uni - they often have them on campus for free. College is a stressful time to begin with and throwing depression into the mix can be disastrous.
As for the money - does the oral surgeon really require up front payment? Any reputable doc/dentist I've ever gone to is generally willing to set up a payment plan if either the insurance won't pay or the deductible is really high. Can't hurt to ask, right? As for the loans, like Deborah said, phone the financial aid office as they will know how to get you started. Payments to the loans only start when you lose full time student status and even then you can ask for deferment for up to a year if you don't find employment right away (the interest still accrues, though). Be aware of what loans you are taking (hopefully they will hold your hand, like mine did for me) as the government doesn't give a whole lot anymore - I had to take 4 from private loan companies (that you can't necessarily consolidate after). You still have time, right? Keep looking for scholarships or grants that you may qualify for - there are always some! Depending on what field you are going into, there will be some that route and because you mentioned your grades and ACT were good, there may be some academic ones as well. They may not be big but that can go a long way with buying books. Also ask the financial aid office about that! It's not hopeless, trust me. I would definitely suggest you try to keep a part time job if at all possible so you can start paying things while attending (lesson learned for me). Try to avoid racking up a lot of credit card debt but I do suggest you at least take out one and use it (just pay off the balance each month) - I can't even tell you how useful having a credit history is (buying cars, a house, or even getting a job, sometimes). My husband had very little upon graduating and it took us quite a few years to build his up.

Well, there's my long 2 cents - hope it helps! Things will work out!

[kuja.girl]

The only person that has Google Play music streaming ability in the house is the hubby (he pays the monthly fee). I can listen to it on the Google T.V. with his account but, unfortunately, Google is lame in the family account area. LOL!

Uploading and streaming your own music files is free (up to 20k songs) as long as they are not locked with DRM. I also have (let me check) 11,897 music files uploaded to it... took over 2 weeks to get them all in there, but it was worth it!

Good luck! I've been thinking of working with evenweave for the first time for my swap gift but I'm too scared of mucking up someone else's gift. LOL!

I love evenweave! Except for the one evenweave I had that was not even... the vertical threads were thinner than the horizontal. I should post a photo of that project. The metroid is very... Squat. lol
So far I like the 18 count. The stitches are small and fill the squares more fully than 14 or 16 count. Color replacement is going ok, already found 1 color I need to rethink but I think most of them will work...

[kuja.girl]

SheWhoRoars about student loans you do it through the school you are going to attend. I went to college and went to financial aid office and the only thing I got was a student loan. They had me fill out paper work. I am going to start making payments again in the fall from the last university I attended. I would probably connect financial aid office at the college you are going to go to. I think it is 6 months after you graduate you have to start paying them back.

As someone who just did my FASTA a few years ago for Grad School I'll tell you this: it's not that hard but you will probably not like what you see. Nearly everyone who goes to college leaves in debt. Don't worry about the debt too much. I'm paying off student loans now and I don't like thinking about it, but hey, that's how our financial system works. My one piece of advice is to avoid private student loans if possible: they usually have very high interest and you can get a better rate on a car loan! There are MANY repayment options for federal loans and you can extend your grace period post-graduation if you do not find employment.

Also be open to change - sometimes hurdles turn out to be not so bad (not the debt! but the other stuff like going to another school). I went to 2 out of state schools and think I am a better person for it as it made me broaden my cultural horizons and gave me new opportunities.

Also - make sure to take advantage of small cost savings while in school. See if your college library has textbooks on reserve instead of buying them, get a meal plan instead of eating out, etc.

[QueenBex]

Why can't I just sleep like a normal person? Why does my mind decide to go through the methods of making lasagne or torture me with memories that I can't change?

[blackmageheart]

Why can't I just sleep like a normal person? Why does my mind decide to go through the methods of making lasagne or torture me with memories that I can't change?

I wish I could answer that, too. Real sleep has eluded me for a long time now, and it's really taking its toll on my mind and body. Hugs to you and everyone else in the Insomnia Club! On a lighter note, do you have a good lasagne recipe?

[Remy]

I too envy those who can just go to sleep. I've been dealing with insomnia since I was little. The only thing I've found that helps is having the tv on with a low volume and a show I've seen several times usually cartoons. It keeps my mind from wandering around too much and eventually I'll drift off. It might take a few hours and I'm prone to really bad nightmares but it's better than staring at the ceiling for hours before deciding to get up and work on a project. But yeah I'm a member of the insomnia club too and just wish we all could sleep when we want.

[QueenBex]

Why can't I just sleep like a normal person? Why does my mind decide to go through the methods of making lasagne or torture me with memories that I can't change?

I wish I could answer that, too. Real sleep has eluded me for a long time now, and it's really taking its toll on my mind and body. Hugs to you and everyone else in the Insomnia Club! On a lighter note, do you have a good lasagne recipe?

Indeed I do! The Bex special; sloppy lasagne! No matter how I do it it always turns out really sloppy! Perhaps it's because I add loads of cheese? I don't have it much these days, it's more of a special treat thing

[Eliste]

Why can't I just sleep like a normal person? Why does my mind decide to go through the methods of making lasagne or torture me with memories that I can't change?

For me its the time of year. I have never adjusted to being so far north and the light for 17 hours a day thing just kills me. I can't get to sleep, but more importantly I can't STAY asleep. And then this kicks my Fibromyalgia cause I didn't get enough sleep. And then I'm too sore to exercise properly, so I'm not tired enough to sleep, so then I sleep even less and its all annoying. Had to do an exam yesterday on about 3 hours sleep, for the third day running. My wrists are really acting up again too, so its all kinds of fun at my place.

[QueenBex]

This is one of many reasons I much prefer winter!


This just in; just met with my new job broker type person, he's told me in no uncertain terms I can't do the job i've been aiming for for the past year. It's pretty much impossible. Oh and he practically demanded I tell him all about my past, well not demanded but it was so there was no way around it, I have some difficulties yes, but what does all that have to do with getting a job in the here and now!?! I was anxious as it was knowing my advisor wouldn't be there and that we were gonna do a mock interview, but dragging me through all that and then declaring that we're about to do the interview??? I took all of my * strength to get through my life story in a not so confidential place with people walking behind me, then he expected me to be ok just going straight into an interview?? I lied!!! I * lied through my god damn teeth!! Surely everyone knows that saying "I'm fine" is complete nonsense and nearly always means the fricking opposite!!! "that's fine" "i understand" "okay" IT'S NOT OK! IT'S NOT OK!!!!